~~ "Bitter Sweet"~~

This is the first time in a  week that I have  even felt like getting  back into the blogging mood...I have tried to keep up with some of you, on comments but just couldn't!

I found this Praying mantis on the outside of the house last week !

I think it kind of says how I have been feeling....wanting to just blend in

and hide...but with a few obviously visable healing spots !!

I have been in a real slump for a bit now concerned for  my baby sister!! She is 13 years younger then me, and I have a sister who is a 1 year, and 2 months older then me , and no my Mom was not impressed when she found herself pregnant after 13 years , but we all loved the "Little Princes" to pieces!!

She came into this world all "soft and cuddly"like the  silk

of this Milkweed seed pod!!

It has only been a few weeks that I visited family in Northern Maine!!   Had a great time laughing and reflecting on memories of the past!   Before I left there for home my baby sister decided she was leaving her husband of many years!!

Reflecting!!

 View of the river from the bridge on my street, from a

short walk yesterday to clear my head!!

   On Saturday my youngest daughter and I traveled 2 hours to see my baby sister in a hospital in Bangor approximately 2 hours, from her home!
Who would have thought that a slight trip and a bump on the knee on Wednesday evening of last week would within 6 hours have her at a local hospital...a leg with no feeling and toes turning blue...x rays showing blood clots in different areas in the leg ...dopamine for pain and a 2 hr. ambulance ride to a large hospital in Bangor!!
Further testing revealed a 2 inch blockage in her aorta!!  The doctor surmised that when she fell some of the blockage had falling away an went down the leg....by 3 o'clock that afternoon she was in emergency surgery having the blockage in the aorta and in her legs removed !!  We where all in
shocked at the news, adding to her already unset and confused children over there parents split ,  two daughters 24 one 32 with two children  an a 21 year old son who becomes a dad in January  knowing they could have lost there mother and grandmother to there children!!

I didn't know what to expect....for when I walked into that Intensive Care Unit ..saw her on every machine I believe possible , an incision the length of her torso, on a morphine pump for the pain, it was all I could do to hold it together !!
I left there, and found myself later thinking I would love to be able to go back there and pick here up and carry her home, .. kiss the boo-boo's, and tell her it is going to be all better, like I did when she hurt herself when she was little!!

6 Month old..first Christmas!!

I spoke with her yesterday on the phone ,and she is now out of ICU and in a room and sounded so much better....at least a week more stay there and a 4 to 6 week recovery after she is home !

Last evenings sunset a.... 

promise for a better tomorrow!!

She is very very blessed,and I am very thankful.... it just wasn't her time,....only God knows the time!!
She still has a 50% blockage in her left Carotid Artie that she knows will have to be kept a close eye on and check periodically   She is now aware of signs that she ignored...not realizing that her body was trying to tell here something, which I think we are all guilty of at one time or another!!

Bittersweet vine!

It is a bitter sweet, and intangled situation!!

Life can be so complicated, and changes can happen 

in a second!!

I am praying for a happy outcome..

but it is totally out of my hands...but not out of my heart!!

Love you Baby Sister!!